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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 8, 2010 15:45:16 GMT -6
Big news: Heroes and Villains Season Four well begin this coming Monday. Be ready.
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Post by ultrawolf13 on Oct 9, 2010 11:18:37 GMT -6
Dude you should bring Ultimate showdown back.
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 9, 2010 11:29:54 GMT -6
That's three. I get one more, and I'll do it.
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 9, 2010 11:37:53 GMT -6
Hey, so do you guys remember that Spider-Powers for Christmas vid which someone (I think Zane) put up here a realllllly long time ago? Yeah, I've been meaning to tell you, but I know the guy who made it. He's in my Sound Image class. We're friends on Facebook. We have lunch together sometimes. What are the chances?
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Post by Kranstin Kardashian on Oct 11, 2010 8:52:50 GMT -6
Hey, so do you guys remember that Spider-Powers for Christmas vid which someone (I think Zane) put up here a realllllly long time ago? No. Not a good start. Allow me to quote myself from 5 or 6 days ago: Are we supposed to guess?
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 11, 2010 12:04:28 GMT -6
Hey, all. Serious question time (meaning no SGK). My roommate just broke up with his girlfriend of 3 years literally a week before I got here at NYU. Now, just one month later, he's seeing someone again. They hooked up last night. It was somewhat awkward.... (No, I wasn't sexiled - they were just making out, and then he went to walk her back to her dorm and didn't come back 'til the morning, so I guess they sexiled her roommate instead.) So, why is it that he's able to get over a three-year girlfriend in just one month, and here I am, five months later after an emotionally scarring rejection from someone who I'd only known for six months beforehand, and I still cannot move on? While they were cuddling and making out, I was doing an assignment for Storytelling Strategies. We had to write a script which is mainly a monologue. Mine was shamelessly about her. I didn't even bother coming up with good names - Jake and April, both aliases I've used before. And I didn't hide a single fact, everything was a hundred percent true. It was essentially non-fiction - it was all me talking. And when I was trying to go to bed, I kept getting up to add more. Why can't I just move on? ??
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Post by zane on Oct 11, 2010 15:09:38 GMT -6
Because you're one of those people. You need to hold on. You can't live with yourself otherwise.
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Post by Frostbite200 on Oct 11, 2010 17:04:54 GMT -6
That's three. I get one more, and I'll do it. No matter what SGK says, I am one more person!!!!!!
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 11, 2010 17:47:14 GMT -6
Oh, yeah, that!
Okay, um, I'll get around to that.... eventually! I need to find some good idea first.... I'll probably do it in the TAS universe....
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Post by zane on Oct 11, 2010 17:48:38 GMT -6
Might I suggest The Original Animated Series?
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 11, 2010 18:49:49 GMT -6
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Y'know, actually, maybe.... Maybe sometime, at least - I'm still kinda leaning to TAS for now.
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 17, 2010 13:42:23 GMT -6
Today's just one of those days where you have no desires, where all you wanna do is nothing, and yet even doing nothing is just too much of something.
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Post by Frostbite200 on Oct 17, 2010 17:07:03 GMT -6
Today's just one of those days where you have no desires, where all you wanna do is nothing, and yet even doing nothing is just too much of something. Been there and done that...over and over.
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Post by jukenami on Oct 17, 2010 20:25:10 GMT -6
Theres always someone out there. ...Always. My boyfriend thought he would never find anyone, and looking back at all the stuff hes been through, no wonder. But I found him, he found me. And there have been much worse situations than yours. You will find someone
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 17, 2010 21:26:10 GMT -6
But if the one person is someone who's already passed by you in your life? What if the best thing you can do right now is just settle for someone you don't love?
I had this huge moment today, while walking through Washington Square in circles over and over and over again. I realized that I'm still in high school, that even a month into NYU, I still haven't settled in, haven't found my place. I'm just one of those people who takes a long time to find his place. In high school, it wasn't 'til my SENIOR YEAR that I settled down.
I don't want to wait that long. I want to be here, I want to be doing what I'm doing. I still want Ariel to be my friend again, but why can't I just worry about her when I go home? Why can't I just spend my time here as though I'm here?
Heck, the only reason I finally settled into Calhoun was BECAUSE of Ariel. I've told you guys this before, about my severe social awkwardness, about that annoying feeling I always get like I'm just being annoying which holds me back in all social environments. With Ariel, I never got that feeling. She's the only one I never felt awkward around (or at least, who I never felt SOCIALLY awkward around).
Why can't that just happen again? Can it happen again? Can things like that happen twice?
Why am I still waiting for it? Why can't I just go out there and MAKE something happen??
My 10-10-10 wish (it's binary for 42, so I made a wish) was simple for a change. Something with Ariel, something here, some new person in my life, some major twist that would change everything. I don't even care if it's GOOD - I just want something to change. And yet, I'm powerless to make it happen - I'm powerless to make a change come about myself. And why? I have no flippin' clue!! I just am!!
I don't even know what I want. But right now, I just feel nothing. I want SOMETHING to be there. I don't know what it is, but I want to feel something. It's like I'm reverting to full-blown existentialism again.... In the words of Meursault, "I want to be greeted with cries of hate." (Or something like that.) Well, okay, maybe I don't want to be greeted with cries of HATE, but I do want SOMETHING. I just don't know what. And I don't know if this is better or worse than it was before Ariel, because now I know what it's like to feel something - now I know what emotion means, what it is to feel, and I know that I'm empty, and it sucks. But if I could go back, there is no way in hell that I would change my life so I never met Ariel. I just wish something like that could happen again. I wish that a miracle could happen twice.
Does any of this make any sense? 'Cause honestly, I don't even understand half of that myself. I'm just still having this huge, elongated moment and I don't know what'd going on in my mind, and I wish that there was some word for my social awkwardness so I could finally tell myself for certain that is all in my head and that I am crazy and that this paranoia isn't real. It's like everything is fake. I don't want everything to be fake - I want something REAL. I want something that MEANS something. I don't even know what that means! I'm just some random nutjob who thinks that everything's fake even though I know that that's crazy and yet then I wonder if it's crazy to think it's crazy. I hate this. Whatever this is, I hate it. I just want something. I don't know what. I just want something.
And I'm venting.... I can't stop venting. I don't even know what I'm venting about. But I'm venting. I kind of just realized that. I'm getting really repetitive, like I must've said "I want something" a million times by now, but whatever. It's still true. I think. I don't know.
Why can't life just make sense for once? (Wow, I really am an absurdist.... That's the quintessential absurdist question! Yay me!)
I just yay'ed me.... After a long venting rant about who knows what.... Wow.... I'm bizarre....
Okay, pretend this whole rant never happened. I got WAY too personal here. It never happened. Forget about it. Thank you.
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Post by jukenami on Oct 20, 2010 19:21:15 GMT -6
Wow, ok. I'm not forgetting it because if you wanted me to you wouldnt have posted it in the first place.
Alright, in all honesty, I find so much emotion through other people. That is probably the simplest way to find SOMETHING to fill a void.
I find it through my friends, my very few friends. I am actually socially awkward too. I am not annoying, but I am awkward to be around. I am quiet, and whenever I say something I become embarrassed because I feel it was a stupid thing to say. Even if it wasnt stupid.
I fill an emotional void with my boyfriend, which is also a simpler way to find some kind of emotion, and life from someone else. We talk more than anything. We aren't like normal couples, we are just ourselves, we find ourselves through each other. I have found myself because of him.
Another way I fill a void is with God. I find feeling as though someone is there all the time is comforting. I find comfort in it, I pray and ask for help. Even when there is no answer, its nice to know someone is listening.
Family. I can find it through my family. But it is broken. It would be easier if I had maybe a normalish kind of family.
I find happiness in art, drawing, music, expressing myself through what I wear, and possibly reading.
Of course you dont have to go by any of that. That is just what I find comfort in, minus family. I don't really find comfort in them. BUT, just sit down, think, and try to find things to do that are worth while. That make you happy. Even if its something CRAZY. Just do it, do it out of the desire to be happy.
And there is my advice.
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Post by spideyfan914 on Oct 20, 2010 22:37:07 GMT -6
Thanks, juke! Yeah, I've decided that I need to find a girlfriend. This is, of course, very strange and out-of-the-norm for me. I don't where to start, or what to do. I don't even know what to look for in a girl! I feel like I'm really far behind in the relationship aspect, and that that puts me at an extreme disadvantage.... Plus, you don't know who might still be in their old high school relationships, and checking Facebook for that seems REALLY stalkerish. I'm seriously at a complete loss here and I'm very out of place....
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Post by jukenami on Oct 21, 2010 22:08:48 GMT -6
Lol. Just go for it.
And who cares if it seems stalkerish to look at people's facebooks... no one will knoooooow
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Post by Kranstin Kardashian on Oct 22, 2010 3:30:11 GMT -6
Lol. Just go for it. And who cares if it seems stalkerish to look at people's facebooks... no one will knoooooow What about that God guy you keep talking about. I know, I know, "GTFO"...
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Post by spideyfan914 on Dec 3, 2010 0:49:00 GMT -6
Wow.... Just wow.... I didn't even realize it had been so long since my last....
UPDATE!!!!! 'cause I know how much you care about my life
So, you remember that really long rant I went on a while back? No? Good, 'cause it never happened. But anyway, I'm basically determined now to turn my life around and set things straight. I've stopped worrying about all the troubles from high school all the time, leaving it only for my visits. I'm trying to be more sociable too, though I don't quite know how that's working.... My ultimate goal is to get an actual real-life girlfriend (laugh now, SGK), but I guess we're taking this one step at a time.
Oh, and I've started holding doors for people again. I used to do that all the time in my freshman year at Calhoun, but I stopped 'cause I always wound up holding it for 20 people and being late to class. I don't really know exactly why that's relevant, but it just is somehow.
So.... Is it working? Actually, yes. For whatever reason, I've been a lot happier this past month! Things are looking up for no real reason whatsoever! And next semester is filled with new *insert cliche here*.
Speaking of next semester.... Well, this semester was the Audio Semester for those of us A-K, so next up is the Visual Semester. I'm taking Frame & Sequence as my core production class, working with cameras in sort of more of a photography environment.
Then I've got Language of Film, which is apparently a very boring seminar, but the lecture complements my current Storytelling Strategies in that it's basically a movie night.
Next comes another Freshman Colloquium, which I've heard doesn't really have a focus but is awesome 'cause of the guy who teaches it. (Some of you may have heard about my sneaking into a class to meet Joel Coen - that was this one. I've heard rumors we're getting Martin Scorcese next semester, but it's too early to be sure.)
Then it's another Writing the Essay class, which sucks but at least I won't need to take it ever again assuming I pass.
And finally, for my General Education requirement, I'm taking Calculus! And not just that, but Calc II! Yeah, I'm gonna be the ONLY film guy taking Calculus.... Heck, I'll be the only Tisch guy altogether! "Hey, what's your major?" "Film!" "What the hell are you doing here??"
So those are my classes.... As for the schedule.... I had this really awesome one worked out, paralleling my schedule this semester, but even better! It was no Friday classes, only one short Monday class, nothing before 12:30 except on Wednesdays when I start Frame & Sequence at 9:30, and only the movie night for night classes. Yeah, that would've been great.... But when it was my turn to register, the Calc class I wanted was closed, so I had to schedule for a later time and wind up with two additional night classes. Which, in theory, isn't THAT bad, but I wanted more! So, I figured out a way to rearrange my entire schedule to minimize night classes! Then I put through and it worked! Then I realized it was actually a much worse schedule, and that I wouldn't be having dinner on Wednesdays! So I tried to change it back, and it mostly went through! But my Writing the Essay class had now been taken! So I screamed and yelled and pounded my computer, as all the others were full unless I gave up my Wednesday dinner. Then one opened at 8 am. I begrudgingly took it. Luckily, I kept checking back to Albert to see if anything else had opened, and I managed to get one Tuesdays and Wednesdays at 9:30. So, it's not the awesome schedule I'd hoped for.... But at least I still have dinner every night, and don't need to wake up at 7. And I DO still have Fridays off! It just sucks that if I hadn't tried to "fix" it, then I would've gotten a better time!
Anyway, that mess is what I was referring to with my "I hate Albert" comments last month. There's basically no chance of anything opening up now, but I still check back to be sure. Now, for the brightest note of the day....
You guys remember Ariel? First true love, friend zone, bursts of insanity, manic depression, epic depression, still hates me, yada-yada-yada-yada.... Yeah, we're friends again. I don't really know how it happened, but I don't really care.
What's weird though is that I think I'm actually over her now. What's weirder is that I realized that just a few hours before she came up to me and said, "Let's start over." Pure coincidence. Or spiritual energies. You choose.
So, yeah, I'm pretty happy about that. Definitely PART of why I've been so inexplicably joyous at random times throughout this past month, but I don't think it's the whole.
I kind of just feel like something's changing, and not for the worse but for the better. Like I'm just gonna wake up one day and everything's going to be right with the world, and it's going to STAY that way at least for some time. As though this entire era of my life is finally fading away, that I'm finally going to move on and live my life. But it's not going to just HAPPEN - I'm going to MAKE it happen! Somehow, sometime soon, I'm just going to make something really good happen that will change my life forever. That's how I feel. It's so.... liberating.
But for now, I've got other things to focus on. I'm not in Frame & Sequence yet - still Sound Image. And I have been inspired by Calhoun's production of A Midsummer Night's Dream to base my own final project off of it, A Midwinter Night's Dream. (Hey, just 'cause I'm not worrying about high school doesn't mean I don't miss home!)
Basically, Puck, disguised as a merchant, is selling the love flower from Midsummer's six months later (though not for the first time). Helena and Demetrius thus find out about it and begin to piece together how their love came about. Then you find out that ALL of the lovers were under the flower's influence even BEFORE Midsummer's began! I thus bring into question the problem of what is true love, and does this spell really mean anything. Meanwhile, Oberon is very angry with Puck, and if it doesn't work out, he's in really big trouble.
So I wrote up a five-page script, which I actually showed to some of you! I've gotten some very positive feedback, so I'm excited to see how this turns out. Though I am kinda worried about timing on it, I've calculated via my Calc II-worthy math skills that if we spend 5 seconds for every 2 lines of iambic pentameter, that comes out to approximately 4 minutes (approximately because some of Puck's and Oberon's lines aren't in iambic pentameter). That will hopefully give time for the credits once the breaks between lines are added in. It's able to be a maximum of 5 minutes, so if I have time left over, I do have a nice 8-line Puck monologue which directly parodies the ending monologue of Midsummer's to insert after the credits.
And now for the hard part.... Casting.... I've put something up in TTG (Tisch Talent Guild, connecting with students and alumni) as well as Craig's List. I need 4 guys and 2 girls. I got somewhere around 30 responses.... Exactly 4 of them are guys.
Aaaaaaand I'm going to audition them. Even the guys, yes, as I'm still hoping to get more responses, and I need to figure out who's who, and it's good to meet them ahead of time. So I've auditioned for Sal a dozen times, and yet I'm still more scared than I have ever been in my life. These guys have ACTUAL EXPERIENCE!!! They're way more experienced than me! I don't think any of them are current students either, which kind of makes it worse....
Oh, and did I mention I'm set to be recording on Sunday? Yeah, auditions are Saturday 11-3, and I'm still not done scheduling everyone. And I don't know what to do about those who can't make it, as I can't book any other time at Todman. And none of the guys have responded since I e-mailed them back either, so that doesn't make me feel any better. HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is all. (Hey, it's long, but it's incorporating a whole month of missed updates....)
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