Post by Nickpick on Jun 11, 2010 14:41:20 GMT -6
(Short Story)
"I never understood this pain i feel...i just hoped that one day...this pain would be useful"
The Story About Becoming Something Different
I felt the cold wet rain travel down my back, i stood there letting the empty feeling of lost faith, no hope and lose sink in. My arms held me, I could barely breathe and moving wasn't possible. I was alone....I wanted to cry and i didn't want to ever stop but i didn't. I just stared into the darkness before me, almost challenging it. I hear the growling in the darkness, i don't see eyes to match the growl but i know they're there...watching me. I held my body with my arms, hoping to warm up. I felt a strange pain, i broke my focus on the darkness to look at my shivering body when i noticed i was covered in blood that ran down my body.
"Nick...Wake up"
My eyes quickly open, eyes ajust to the sunlight in the room. I turn my head to my left and see her before me. My mother stood at the doorway, holding the basket of dirty clothes.
"I let you sleep in like you so nicely asked, now get dressed...school's in 30"
She walked off, i let my thoughts run wild but i ignored them, i focused on my breathing. I seemed off like i've been crying for hours. I sat up, letting the blanket fall off my chest. I threw them off me letting the first question about my dream fill me in.
"Damn it"
I quickly got dressed, throwing on my blue striped shirt, jeans with my favorite shoes, black vans with my name in red marker on the side. I grabbed my necklace with the superman symbol on it and threw it on, i got it for my 17th birthday and i wore it everyday. I grabbed my four bracelets, the red and blue bracelet, black one with my name on it and a pink one my best friend Crystal gave me, I pulled them on, instead of brushing my teeth, i stole a sip of the mouth wash, gargled it and spit it out. I didn't smile in the mirror, there was no reason to smile anymore.
"10 minutes!"
I heard my mother yell, i grabbed my backpack and left my room, the ride to school was quiet and short. I stared out the window, knowing my mother wanted to say something to me but she didn't. All she said was "Have a good day" and "I'll pick you up at 4" an hour after school ended. No 'I love you' not even a 'God bless' But it didn't bother me, my mind was miles away traveling into pain that i brought upon myself.
"Yeah"
That was all i could manage to say, i walked into school and saw all the faces, all different lives i would easily trade for. The pain i felt everyday was something i didn't understand. something i couldn't erase or get rid of, so i dealt with the best way i knew how.
"Nick!"
I saw my group of friends waiting for me, i smiled at them as i walked toward them. There was Eric and Sarah, they were a couple and super clingy, everytime they were together, they always hand their hands on each other, if they weren't kissing, they were hugging. There was Crystal, the good girl who just got out of a relationship with some jerk who cheated on her. We were best friends and i trusted her with my life and there was Leah, she was the only girl who wore her personality on her sleeve. pink highlights, heavy eye liner and blood red lipstick. She said what she felt and did as she wanted. When i was with these people, my mind was clear, no thoughts or pain inflected me.
"On no, He's in an emo mood!"
Eric announced, Sarah and Leah laughed while Crystal seemed worried, She walked up to me and give me a big hug, i felt better and my mind cleared. I smiled for the first time in along time.
"Are you?"
She asked, i stared down at my hand that wrapped around her and met at her back of her white shirt that lead into a skirt.
"I'm fine"
She released me and smiled as she looked up at me, she turned around and smiled
"He's not emo today!"
"Good!"
I always had this sense when the bell was going to ring, my head felt this slight pressure
"The bell's going to ring"
The bell went off and all the students scattered like roaches. Crystal smiled at me, I at her
"How do you always do that without wearing or seeing a clock?"
"I don't know"
She rubbed my arm
"Meet us at lunch guys!"
Eric announced, Eric and Sarah released each other and walked down different halls, Leah waited for Crystal.
"Lunch in the garden...okay?"
I nod and she walks off, Leah just jerk her chin up at me, i do the same and smile as the smile dies the thoughts return, clouding my mind like a monsoon.
"Come on, let's get it over with"
Walk to class, I walked into Biology 101, the teacher writes her name on the white board, i stare at all the students, looking for a seat when i see only see one in the last row. I hated the last row, it was cold and very hard to hear the teacher. I walk to the last row, hang my backpack on the back of the chair and take a seat. The teacher continued to write on the board, Mrs. Bello the top left corner of the white board reads.
"Psst!"
I looked to my right, following the call. He sat there, tapping his shoe against the floor, wearing purple skinny jeans, black shirt that says "Epic Fail" with an arrow that pointed at...me. I looked up at him, tan white skin with blue eyes and blond hair that curled up at his neck. A lock of his hair covered his right eye and that would usually bother me but in this case...it didn't.
"Yeah?"
"Do you have a pencil, I'm new and forgot mine in my locker"
The request took awhile to process, He was new which explained the question of me never seeing this kid and the question of what he wanted. I opened my desk, took a pencil and handed it to him. His hand touches mine as he gripped the pencil. Sending a shock which made my hand flinch but his hand was soft, i didn't let go of the pencil, i felt no pain, all i felt was...relief, it was beautiful, like the smell before rain. It was calming and it felt...addicting. It was beautiful, the pain was gone, i wanted to smile, i wanted to leap with joy but instead i stared at his hand, i snapped out of it and released the pencil and looked away.
"Uh thanks"
i ignored him, what happened? what world did i drift into? I wanted more of it, i wanted to travel deeper into the question.
"Okay class before we start today...Lucas Williams, wanna stand up?"
Suddenly, he stood. I knew the answer to the question
"He's new here so i'd like everyone to say hello"
Everyone weakly said "Hello" but i didn't, i looked at him as he took a seat with a smile across his face. Who was he? why didn't this pain go away? I needed to know and i planned to find out.
Chapter 2: The Fruit and The Garden
"I never understood this pain i feel...i just hoped that one day...this pain would be useful"
The Story About Becoming Something Different
I felt the cold wet rain travel down my back, i stood there letting the empty feeling of lost faith, no hope and lose sink in. My arms held me, I could barely breathe and moving wasn't possible. I was alone....I wanted to cry and i didn't want to ever stop but i didn't. I just stared into the darkness before me, almost challenging it. I hear the growling in the darkness, i don't see eyes to match the growl but i know they're there...watching me. I held my body with my arms, hoping to warm up. I felt a strange pain, i broke my focus on the darkness to look at my shivering body when i noticed i was covered in blood that ran down my body.
"Nick...Wake up"
My eyes quickly open, eyes ajust to the sunlight in the room. I turn my head to my left and see her before me. My mother stood at the doorway, holding the basket of dirty clothes.
"I let you sleep in like you so nicely asked, now get dressed...school's in 30"
She walked off, i let my thoughts run wild but i ignored them, i focused on my breathing. I seemed off like i've been crying for hours. I sat up, letting the blanket fall off my chest. I threw them off me letting the first question about my dream fill me in.
"Damn it"
I quickly got dressed, throwing on my blue striped shirt, jeans with my favorite shoes, black vans with my name in red marker on the side. I grabbed my necklace with the superman symbol on it and threw it on, i got it for my 17th birthday and i wore it everyday. I grabbed my four bracelets, the red and blue bracelet, black one with my name on it and a pink one my best friend Crystal gave me, I pulled them on, instead of brushing my teeth, i stole a sip of the mouth wash, gargled it and spit it out. I didn't smile in the mirror, there was no reason to smile anymore.
"10 minutes!"
I heard my mother yell, i grabbed my backpack and left my room, the ride to school was quiet and short. I stared out the window, knowing my mother wanted to say something to me but she didn't. All she said was "Have a good day" and "I'll pick you up at 4" an hour after school ended. No 'I love you' not even a 'God bless' But it didn't bother me, my mind was miles away traveling into pain that i brought upon myself.
"Yeah"
That was all i could manage to say, i walked into school and saw all the faces, all different lives i would easily trade for. The pain i felt everyday was something i didn't understand. something i couldn't erase or get rid of, so i dealt with the best way i knew how.
"Nick!"
I saw my group of friends waiting for me, i smiled at them as i walked toward them. There was Eric and Sarah, they were a couple and super clingy, everytime they were together, they always hand their hands on each other, if they weren't kissing, they were hugging. There was Crystal, the good girl who just got out of a relationship with some jerk who cheated on her. We were best friends and i trusted her with my life and there was Leah, she was the only girl who wore her personality on her sleeve. pink highlights, heavy eye liner and blood red lipstick. She said what she felt and did as she wanted. When i was with these people, my mind was clear, no thoughts or pain inflected me.
"On no, He's in an emo mood!"
Eric announced, Sarah and Leah laughed while Crystal seemed worried, She walked up to me and give me a big hug, i felt better and my mind cleared. I smiled for the first time in along time.
"Are you?"
She asked, i stared down at my hand that wrapped around her and met at her back of her white shirt that lead into a skirt.
"I'm fine"
She released me and smiled as she looked up at me, she turned around and smiled
"He's not emo today!"
"Good!"
I always had this sense when the bell was going to ring, my head felt this slight pressure
"The bell's going to ring"
The bell went off and all the students scattered like roaches. Crystal smiled at me, I at her
"How do you always do that without wearing or seeing a clock?"
"I don't know"
She rubbed my arm
"Meet us at lunch guys!"
Eric announced, Eric and Sarah released each other and walked down different halls, Leah waited for Crystal.
"Lunch in the garden...okay?"
I nod and she walks off, Leah just jerk her chin up at me, i do the same and smile as the smile dies the thoughts return, clouding my mind like a monsoon.
"Come on, let's get it over with"
Walk to class, I walked into Biology 101, the teacher writes her name on the white board, i stare at all the students, looking for a seat when i see only see one in the last row. I hated the last row, it was cold and very hard to hear the teacher. I walk to the last row, hang my backpack on the back of the chair and take a seat. The teacher continued to write on the board, Mrs. Bello the top left corner of the white board reads.
"Psst!"
I looked to my right, following the call. He sat there, tapping his shoe against the floor, wearing purple skinny jeans, black shirt that says "Epic Fail" with an arrow that pointed at...me. I looked up at him, tan white skin with blue eyes and blond hair that curled up at his neck. A lock of his hair covered his right eye and that would usually bother me but in this case...it didn't.
"Yeah?"
"Do you have a pencil, I'm new and forgot mine in my locker"
The request took awhile to process, He was new which explained the question of me never seeing this kid and the question of what he wanted. I opened my desk, took a pencil and handed it to him. His hand touches mine as he gripped the pencil. Sending a shock which made my hand flinch but his hand was soft, i didn't let go of the pencil, i felt no pain, all i felt was...relief, it was beautiful, like the smell before rain. It was calming and it felt...addicting. It was beautiful, the pain was gone, i wanted to smile, i wanted to leap with joy but instead i stared at his hand, i snapped out of it and released the pencil and looked away.
"Uh thanks"
i ignored him, what happened? what world did i drift into? I wanted more of it, i wanted to travel deeper into the question.
"Okay class before we start today...Lucas Williams, wanna stand up?"
Suddenly, he stood. I knew the answer to the question
"He's new here so i'd like everyone to say hello"
Everyone weakly said "Hello" but i didn't, i looked at him as he took a seat with a smile across his face. Who was he? why didn't this pain go away? I needed to know and i planned to find out.
Chapter 2: The Fruit and The Garden
